Monday, August 11, 2014

MY LOVE



You were always in my dreams
Dont ask me how or why
I can say that was once
When my mind and pure spirit
were as a receiver
of an unknown but intuited reality
when spoke to God
listening to Klaus Schulze´s music,
and the universe came to me ...
My illusions, bright pink roses,
were crushed in my heart, at once,
by bitter disappointments and misunderstandings, wanted to die ...
Exhausted fell into a deep sleep ...
Then I saw You ... couldn´t resist your beautiful eyes,
your expressive face, and your sweet caucasian features ...
felt your strong body hugging
while succumbing to your hot look, your sexy smile, magnetic ...
I woke up but never forgot You,
and looked in the barren path of my life,
spent a year ... was crying when didn´t found You,
and felt so empty, so out of place,
unable to find myself ...
For you remained virgin
never wanted to be with anyone, not allowed to touch me ...
Just thinking of you, if you could be,
if you ever find me ...
14 years passed ... met guys on the web
thought will find you ... but they was not you.
I was hurt and made me feel more alone ...
Until one day met You
and was the most beautiful thing I feel.
You dont know how much emotion felt
knowing it was you, the doors of heaven opened up before me ...
But Im so hurt
I'm like an oyster that is closed to the world.
Lots of cynicism and derision are hard knocks against my face
and I´ve been defaced.
I ´ve become so stupid,
I ´ve denied life, sabotage me ...
As I walk away as beaten dog
Feeling that everyone hates me ...
I am dying, and yet
You're still in my night dreams and fantasies,
only your love and understanding
can save me ...
Sublime is my dream, my shining star
You're in my subconscious
Beyond the walls of my prejudices, my confusion,
(Against I crash and try to break).
For you deny so many things, become a rebel,
I'm a different person ...
And You burns my heart like a scorching ember.